thank goodness for this outlet...while blogging is quite a distraction for a person of my nature, who is easily distracted by virtually everything and anything...it also offers me a sense of release during this ultra stressful time of FINALS...gosh how i wish and long to already B an alumni at times like these...i was actually juss discussing dat w/ melissa (my roomie) today...how i would give anything to be in her shoes just for dis one week since she's a recent addition to the UCI alum's last qtr...lucky girl..i've never seen anyone as driven as my roomate...if u haven't already met her...u probably should ask dee, em or myself to introduce u to dis beautiful long-ass super straight (down to her but) haired woman...because she's honestly gonna be famous one of these days...she's actually gonna be a reporter for the news...she landed a job at NBC as a production assistant (?) i believe...i soooo FFROUD of her! YAY meliss!!! she's one of those pple who knows what she wants and is gonna for she get it! thanks for all the advice over the years girlie...u are really the one who kept as all grounded in the last 4 yrs...

anyhoot...today was a good one...had my internship at CAST( child abuse agency service team), and played w/ some kiddos. i had a really cute white 3-yr old boy today w/ the cutest dimples and bluest eyes. he was a z-case in CAST lingo that means ultra super super secret case legally where we can't even know the child's name b/c its super doper secret. some of those cases u see on TV might have actually passed thru CAST at one point in time...but we are legally bound not to say anything in great detail. This kiddo was really hyper getting into about every toy possible: he jumped from playing cars to video games to basketball hoop to watching tele tubbies to playing w/ the kitchen set to wanting to do a puppet show to playing w/ a puzzle. Believe me he worked me today...since i was also going on 4 hrs of sleep. I had a little trouble keepin up but i did my best. He had the cutest phrases. But in the back of my head, i was so sad to b/c i know that the reason why he was at CAST was b/c of an alleged abuse (sexual, emotional, physical neglect) call. Gosh while i love working as an child advocate intern there...i am somehow always left depressed and helpless to the situation and circumstance of what this kids have to go thru...imagine an adorable 3 yr old boy being abuse...gosh..sigh...i pray for these evil perpertrators who prey on innocent beautiful children of GOD... i don't understand...but i believe everything happens for a reason. God can truly make something BEAUTIFUL out of something that can be so ugly...believe i've seen dat come true in my life already even tho i've only been there for one qtr! then there was this one girl 14 whose stepdad abuse her for a straight yr from 10-11 and she disclose to her church group camp...so mature for a 14 yr old...and so beautiful too...

I pray for her too Kuya Jess...keep all these children close in the palm of ur hands. please protect them and keep them from any more harm that may come their way. And please help us to answer the call to serve and minister to these oh so traumatized survivors of abuse! It's hard, but u call us all to something...and this what i feel l'm called to do for the time being. bless all victims of abuse and assualt. help them to heal and turn to u for strength and direction. amen.

after that went home to eat...yum yay for trader joes...im starting back on this healthier food obsession. come on MOM we got to start the SELF CHALLENGE...i wanna look good this summer for graduation...oh how i miss my figure of freshman yr...oh wells at least im happy w/ myself...round lil' ball that i am :o) hehehe oompa lumpa duptidu! hehehe...goooooooo oompas!! then review session for arts class...i actually grew to like this class...never knew u could learn so much for 30-40 slides in one lecture...talagang KRAZY...then back home for a nappie nap...then showered...then FRIENDS (its was alright...not too great)...then went to coffee w/ a friend (dat was a undeserved break since i hadn't done any studying all day...but well worth it...i figured i only have a few months left of college...musn't always be a george banks...rite?) then to commons...where i know sit typing away...being distracted once again from my dreaded paper...okay enuff enuff...must go back to work...i think i can...i think i can!

thank u kj...BIL